Zombie Kitty

Our Not-so-new apartment

2009-11-15T20:24:00.000-08:00

Maybe...

2009-11-15T20:23:00.001-08:00

2lbs a week is a good start. IDK. I'm so desperate.

YAY

2009-07-28T19:11:00.000-07:00

We have internets back and cables too ^_^

We moved

2009-07-12T19:56:00.000-07:00

to a new apartment where we have no internet/cable, so yea i can't update this. RAWR

STFU Saturday

2009-06-27T15:32:00.000-07:00

I are have job nao

2009-06-27T14:05:00.001-07:00

Yep I have a job now. Cashier at Lowes Foods in Burlington. Wh00t. $7.25/hr blah.

Who cares!?!?

2009-06-25T18:22:00.000-07:00

Who even gives a flying fuck about Michael Jackson.

>_<
Has everyone already forgot that Farrah Fuckin Fawcett died today also.
But this kid makes me mad and makes me smile at the same time.

STFU Saturday.

2009-06-20T09:05:00.000-07:00

eBay

2009-06-13T10:35:00.000-07:00

...pisses me off sometimes.
Sometimes things just aren't in as good of shape as the description leads on.
And I have the right to leave negative feedback as I see fit. DAMNIT!

NIN/JA ^_^

2009-06-12T11:57:00.000-07:00

Cyn is going to a NIN & Jane's Addiction concert tonight. So we used up her hair streaking dye and I hope it comes out alright. I haven't washed mine out yet. I haven't highlighted my hair since 10th grade-ish. Who knows. *EEK*

On a side note: Today is exactly 8 months until Andy turns 21 & 10 months until I turn 21. Fuckin' wh00t!

Saving the world.

2009-06-11T08:22:00.001-07:00

I'm not showering today. I refuse. My hair is kinda nasty but that's what a pony tail is for. ^_^
Forget it! I have other fish to fry!

OFF TO SAVE THE WORLD...
pfft. And have breakfast at almost 11:30
JAJAJAJJA..

Naughty Granny

2009-06-09T12:16:00.000-07:00

I hate Windows Operating Systems (but I hate Macs too) & I hate printers.
Actually, I fuckin despise every damn piece of computer equipment I own.
All I want to do is print. ALL I WANT TO DO IS PRINT!
But nooo Windows has to make it a pain the friggin ass to print just one damn thing!

Try canceling a error document or try canceling ANY document for that matter. Go Ahead! I'll wait. It's crazy and I'm about to throw everything out of the window. My printer says it's offline. But it's on and was working 5 minutes ago.
Whatever. I'm going off on a tangent.

This caught my eye yesterday...

Old people don't masturbate. THAT'S A SIN!

Getting the courage.

2009-06-08T19:13:00.000-07:00

I'm finally getting the courage to
let Andy drive, at 20 years old.
The van behind him makes him look like a father.
^_^
I feel at peace inside
when I see him in it.
Baby, You will make a GREAT father someday.

Metallica...

2009-06-06T07:03:00.001-07:00

Some pictures of Andy & Matt playing guitar that I found on my computer.

Job Hunting,,,

2009-06-01T10:23:00.000-07:00

I just spend the last 4½ hours job hunting.
I applied at Target, Hobby Lobby, Payless Shoes, a gas station, and Sally's.
I talked to the guy a PetSmart in hopes of finding something. No one is really hiring. Grrr

So Andy & I used to have this friend, Jody, a semi-black guy and last April, Jody and I had a falling out and bitched each other out. Well I ran into him today after coming out of Hobby Lobby and we chatted for a while. Some how he got the idea that I was attracted to him and he said that if I wanted to get one in Andy wouldn't have to know. And he walked around me, I thought he was going towards his car but he ended up walking behind me and grabbed my ass. I sorta jumped forward and started shaking a little and wiggin out inside. I mean who does he think he is. Goddamnit. That shit just pisses me off. So I made an excuse to get out of there and took off to Andy's work to calm down. I was freaking the fuck out because it was a huge parking lot and there were a lot of cars out there but no people and the way he was looking at me I thought I was gonna be raped or something. Obviously, morals don't matter to Jody anymore because he's been sleeping with a woman who has been married for 10 years. WHA!

Plus 8

2009-05-31T10:26:00.000-07:00

I love(d) Jon & Kate plus 8. I thought Kate was the most wonderful mother in the whole world. Even Andy said while watching an episode one night, "Wow, Ya know, she really is a good mom. She let's them make their own minds". And I totally agreed.
Until now.
I happened to be listening to a interview of Aunt Jody & Uncle Kevin (the twins & sextuplets aunt & uncle) and Aunt Jody used to babysit the kids from time to time when Kate needed help and the producers decided to start paying Aunt Jody for her appearances in the show and Kate replied with "No one is making money off of my kids". WHAT?!? She has been helping you and this is how you repay her. Now, Aunt Jody & Uncle Kevin are not in the episodes.

And have you even noticed that the grandparents from either side are not really in the picture?
Well, when Kate first found out she was having sextuplets their church did a charity drive to help gets things for the future babies. Well the church managed to get 6 beautiful working cribs for the babies but Kate refused to take the cribs because THEY DID NOT MATCH.
I'm sorry but if you are having that many babies, you need all the help you can get and the babies don't give two shits whether they match or not.

I hate that my view has changed because I thought that it was just Jon who was the dirty one.
And then I find this out about Kate. And also the rumors of her sleeping with her bodyguard.
I just I don't even know anymore. I have lost respect for both of them as parents.
I just feel sorry for the children. They are the true victims here.

Marley & Me

2009-05-27T12:34:00.000-07:00

And so I just cried my freakin' eyes out. I thought Marley & Me would be a complete comedy. I laughed through the first hour or so. But the last 45 minutes had me sobbing like a baby. It was a great movie, but I was hoping to feel alive and cheerful and whatnot at the end. But, there's always a but instead I ruined the makeup that I worked so hard on this morning. >_<

It made me want to just go hug the living crap out of my dog. And it made me miss my beloved Pooh Bear even more. Pooh Bear went missing in early April. We've had her for going on 10 years and she was part of the family. But one day she didn't come when we called and she didn't eat the crumbs of cat food on the sidewalk. Holly her best friend is almost 11 years old and still kicking but barely. She just mainly sleeps because that's all her weak muscles and bones can really handle. She's on a supplement but she's not a puppy anymore.

Well, I'm going off on a tangent.

A video of my sweet Pooh Bear & my lovely Holly. Pooh Bear is the blonde dog rolling around on the ground and Holly is the Bassett Hound.

FX Channel

2009-05-25T10:39:00.000-07:00

Thank you FX for being the only channel this Memorial Day to keep your NORMAL SCHEDULE.

I couldn't get my daily Desperate Housewives fix because lifetime is all movies today.
House isn't on today.
Although, TLC is having a Jon & Kate Plus 8 marathon leading up to the season premiere tonight at 9. Which is a plus but I have seen every episode numerous times.

My daily TV schedule while I clean and tidy up. I must have a sound in the background or I get nothing done.

9-10am: Reba on Lifetime
10-10:30: The Daily Show with Jon Stewart (Comedy Central)
10:30-11: The Colbert Report (Comedy Central)
11-Noon: What Not To Wear (TLC)
Noon -2: 2 episodes of Desperate Housewives (Lifetime)
2-3: Whatever I can find usually Just shoot me on TBS
3-4: 2 episodes Malcolm in the Middle (FX)
4-5: WifeSwap (Lifetime)
5-6: 2 episodes Cook Yourself Thin (Lifetime)
6-7: Still Standing (Lifetime)
After that I spend time with Andy because he's home.

Give them a freakin NAPKIN

2009-04-15T08:38:00.000-07:00

I've been MIA for a while. Sorry to anyone, if anyone at all, reads this.
I'm an AVON Rep now and I have very little time on my hands.

Twilight used to be cool...

2009-02-27T05:46:00.000-08:00

It was a great story and jesus the first book has been around since at least 2004. How come 2008 was it's big fuckin debut???

you bastards ruined it and made is so goddamn commercial.
Why? Why do you have to ruin everything.
Just like Nightmare before Christmas got ruined.
And that fuckin movie came out in the early 90's.
Now you can't walk anywhere without seeing some fucker have a jack skellington belt. >_>

Now all you little bitches think you are Bella, changing your location to Forks, WA.
WTF? Bitch you are not from there. You don't date a vampire, you're not good enough to date a vampire. Stop changing your goddamn names to Sarah_Cullen, JESSICullen, Bella Swan/Cullen, or any variation. Nor edwardluvvr4eva.. and shit like that. He's hot in the book but jeez not in the movie. He's just not. It's pathetic how so many fuckin people can jump on a bandwagon and LOVE this book. I mean myspace has fuckin google add "Which Twilight Character are you? Take the Quiz". What's with all the fuckin propaganda.

I absolutely loved the story, I was infatuated, BUT now I hate it, I despise the fuckin book because you stupid cunts had to talk about it nonstop and plaster their faces everywhere.

In short:
Grow up bitches, you're not Bella.. And you never will.
You ruined it for me and alot of others.
The original book is 4 years old. Discover something new.

WinterJam 2009

2009-02-23T16:22:00.000-08:00

Found out Family Force 5 was going to be on the WinterJam 2009 tour. So 3 days before the concert I decided to go with my friend Rosie, her roommates, Cynthia, & Andy.

Anywho they came on Saturday, Feb 21, 2009 to Greensboro, NC

Family Force 5 was the best part of the whole night.

PICS FOLLOW:

Cramped into the lobby before the show.

We look like crackheads.

Family Force 5 playing. We were kinda far away.

I will have videos just as soon as I can get them uploaded to YouTube.
They are taking forever.

Andy's 20th

2009-02-15T13:26:00.000-08:00

Andy's 20th birthday was on Thursday 2/12.
He had a Transformers theme.
We had a little get-together dinner for him at Nana's house.

His totally gay "Birthday Boy" hat:

The cake (Which I got for free because Foodlion fucked up)

The balloons were unfortunately the new Animated Transformers.
>_<

One of Andy's presents...
Star Wars Millennium Falcon Toy.

& He also got F.E.A.R. 2 & and Star Wars poster.

OTHER RANDOM PICS:

My humongous backside, & Andy's

Cynthia thinks it's funny to take retarded candid shots of me.

Cynthia...

My mother -__-

My Father..

Family Force 5

2009-02-09T19:49:00.001-08:00

I'm kinda obsessed with this song right now.

Pregnant Man? BULLSHIT

2009-02-08T17:12:00.000-08:00

Okay so thanks to the Oprah show and now TLC most of the US..even most of the world knows about the Pregnant Man.

They keep saying that this couple is making history, him being the first man to give birth.

Let's rewind, Thomas (father) WAS NOT born a man. Thomas was originally Tracie until 2002 when he had a sex change operation.

This drives me nuts because SHE is not a HE so it's not that big of a deal. I mean Thomas still has a uterus. Still making it a WOMAN giving birth, not a MAN!!

Furthermore, How much hell with this kid catch in school. Daddy gave birth to me, and daddy was once a woman. School children are cruel and will make fun of anything and everything.

Another thing that bugs me is when people online tell you they are a woman. When in reality they are a male to female tranny. YOU ARE NOT A WOMAN!!! YOU WERE BORN A FUCKIN GUY!!! And I don't care how many people I offend here because this shit is just fuckin annoying.
It's deceitful. In my personal opinion, if you had a sex change you are still whatever you were born as!

Snow? Yea Right...

2009-02-04T05:17:00.000-08:00

It amazes me that local news stations around North Carolina can spend millions on their "Doppler Radars" & "Your Double Doppler Forecast".
All this money and they can't even get the freakin' forecast right.

Yesterday around 7pm it started snowing. The local and The Weather Channel said 2-4" accumulating.
By 10pm-ish they said 1-2". By 11pm last night they said about 1"

Todays...Super Colossal, Ginormous, Stupendous, Monster of a snow storm!

We didn't even get that. A mere dusting...

And here I didn't bother getting Cynthia up for school because I expected it to be more than this so here I am 8:21am. The little hoe could have went to school today but no here she is in her bed sleeping like a rock. And she will continue to sleep until around 12pm-1pm.
How do teenagers sleep that long. I feel like I've wasted a day if I sleep past 9am. But I digress. Sorry.

Ps. We have A LOT of cars in our yard.
o0o0oh PSS.
Reminds me, Does anyone remember when A Lot used be spelled Alot.
What the hell happened to that??? Surely, it's not always been this way.

Oh yea and a 4th thing before I forget.

So Andy put his xbox live payment on his credit card, on that we already owe almost $5,000 on. Supposedly it's supposed to be drafted ONCE a YEAR. He told me when the 7.99 was drafted from his CREDIT CARD last month or December, something like that, that he was caught up until August 2009 & wouldn't have to pay again until then. My idiot self believed him. Alas, he has lied to me again. He always lies, constantly. Drives me nuts. So today I was checking the balance on the credit card to see if the Time Warner Cable payment went through. And a lovely XBOX LIVE $7.99 was posted to the account on 2/2/2009.
He only works 8am-12pm today, And you bet that when he gets home. He's gonna get quite the tongue lashing. I'm so pissed.

GoodWill Finds 2

2009-02-03T17:09:00.000-08:00

*NOTE*: Semi-Image Heavy

Cyn & I went Goodwilling again today..

I got her Spin Doctors & Blind Melon tapes:
(Check out my Gerbil in the back SO CUTE!)

These pants for me. So 90's early 2000's:

A small Jager shirt to match Andy's Jager Shirt.
He has the guys version.

Some VH1 shirt for me:

Skirt for Cyn:

Shirt for me: It's actually purple and black but my camera is weird:

I was kinda iffy on this shirt but Cyn said it looked good on me:

Mary Jane socks. I have some orange Halloween ones like these with black cats on them but these aren't as cool:

Some lounge pants for Andy:

These Circa shoes. Kinda worn but hey they are comfy:

COMPLETELY 90's. Gotta love these clod-hoppers!:

And I got Andy a pair of Khaki cargo pants.

My Biggest Fear.

2009-01-30T19:26:00.000-08:00

WARNING: PIC HEAVY!

Andy got his permit. Yes, Learner's Permit...not License.

On Wednesday the 28th...

I know I've been holding him back, from being independent and driving on his own.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that he could crash.
I'm scared that someone could hit him.
I'm scared he might DIE.
I wish I could put a protective bubble around him.

At almost 20 he should have been driving long before.
But I'm selfish. I really just wanted to protect him.

I wanted to make damn sure that I knew he had arrived to his destination successfully.
This meant taking and picking him up from work, taking him to the store, taking him to a friends house, everything. Not to mention it was more time that I could spend with him.

I don't know what I would do, or where I would be without him.
My life really wouldn't have a purpose if he were not there anymore.

And see, If I had never met him it wouldn't matter, obviously.
Life would go on.
But once someone or something great comes into your life, you want it to last forever.
And generally you would do anything to protect that one thing. He's it, my one thing to protect with my life.
But if something were to happen, my life would be torn to shreds.
That one thing you worked so hard to hold on to, gone.
You long for it once it's gone and weep. And every tiny thing reminds you. The flood of tears and that lead ball in the pit of your stomach slips out from the shadows.
I just, I would be LOST without him.

I held him back, I caused his pain.
He's catching on to driving rather quickly though. We went on an hour long drive tonight.

My cat has a horrible licking obsession. She grooms herself to the point at which she pulls patches of her fur out. No fleas though??

By the way, I don't know how many of you out there are WoWfags but let me just say that World of Warcraft RUINS relationships. But sometimes I secretly play. 0_o

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Recent Pics:

I hate candid shots. I always look like I'm nuts.

In a Moby cd ^_^

Again, I always look like a crackhead.

My nose is HUGGGGEEEE!

I hate my green camera. It sucks.
Worst $119 I've ever spent. Grrr

God, I love Ring Pops!

There damn well better be something in my eye for me to look this retarded.

Goodwilling it! Yesterday's Finds

2009-01-26T07:44:00.000-08:00

Went to Goodwill yesterday afternoon...
With our trusty discount card (Frequent shoppers get 15% off)
but for some reason we are only getting 10% off... hmmm
AND FOUND:

-2 Pairs of jeans for me
2 (5.00 - .50 Discount = 4.50 each) = 9.00

-brand new DDR Mat (now I have 4 *_*)
@ 4.00 [No discount because it's a specialty item.]

-A very, very nice 2pc black suit for Andy
Was 7.50 -.75 Discount = $6.75

- A Netgear Modem
Was 3.00 - .30 Discount = 2.70

- Pink & Black heels originally from Target
New with tags!!! *NOTE: The roach in the picture is a keychain.*
Was 4.00 - .40 Discount = 3.60

- Mercenaries 2 shirt for Andy
1.75 -.18 Discount = 1.57

-Star Wars Tshirt for Andy
1.75- .18 Discount = 1.57

- Def Leppard [Rock of Ages Tour 2005] Tshirt for Cynthia
1.75 - .18 Discount = 1.57

- A Black leather [fake leather] star bracelet
Was 1.00 - .10 Discount = .90

Oh Yea Forgot something.

2009-01-25T11:32:00.000-08:00

It snowed the last week and I forgot to mention it.
Sunday night, Monday morning.

Here's the pics:

Cynthia and her zombie boobie holder shirt.

SnowHoe

Behind my parents house

One of my cold little kitties.
This one is Starr.

Andy's bigass snow ball.

We looked busted...damn.

Well she is...

Andy at Nana's house. ME >>>>> ^^^^^^

I miss the old days.

2009-01-25T11:06:00.000-08:00

What I'm doing AT THIS VERY MOMENT... intense isn't it?

1. Looking for an apartment.
2. Looking for a job.
3. Missing my old self
4. Rehashing all the good times on my old Xanga.
xanga.com/push9monkeys
5. Missing being 14-16 years old. Those rocked
6. Thinking seriously about dropping about 65-70 lbs.
7. I have a Twitter now. Push9monkeys

Andy has a business meeting today. And I can't go. boooo. Some dude with a computer company wants to help him get his business of the ground.

Cynthia is in Greensboro for the weekend.
I got 3 new bras yesterday, two of which have matching panties. ^_^
I'm desperate for brassières. Truly.

Cynthia hates the word Funk... so FUNK FUNK FUNK FUNK FUNK!!!!

I have to run to Goodwill and to pay the jewelers bill. More money sucked out of me. BLAHHHH

Oh and I have to downsize. What the fuck is that shit?
I have ALOT of stuff. And Andy says that if we want to be able to fit in an apartment we will have to downsize. Not necessarily get rid of stuff, just we will have to leave it behind at my parents house. Like free storage. BLAH. This will be a task.

Brillo Pads made my hands smell like rust and soap scum.

For Andy

2009-01-23T19:23:00.001-08:00

This was actually written for a chick but whatever.

"I Like for You to Be Still"

"I like for you to be still: it is as though you were absent,
and you hear me from far away and my voice does not touch you.
It seems as though your eyes had flown away
and it seems that a kiss had sealed your mouth.

As all things are filled with my soul
you emerge from the things, filled with my soul.
You are like my soul, a butterfly of dream,
and you are like the word Melancholy.

I like for you to be still, and you seem far away.
It sounds as though you were lamenting, a butterfly cooing like a dove.
And you hear me from far away, and my voice does not reach you:
Let me come to be still in your silence.

And let me talk to you with your silence
that is bright as a lamp, simple as a ring.
You are like the night, with its stillness and constellations.
Your silence is that of a star, as remote and candid.

I like for you to be still: it is as though you were absent,
distant and full of sorrow as though you had died.
One word then, one smile, is enough.
And I am happy, happy that it's not true."
~Pablo Neruda

Discipline These Damn Kids

2009-01-22T12:08:00.001-08:00

Am I the only person who gets incredibly pissed off when watching Nanny911??

I mean honestly, what ever happened to corporal punishment? If I would have behaved like some of these brats do I would have got my ass whooped with a belt, flyswatter, switch, or 5 gallon paint stir stick. This shit is ridiculous parents are pussy-footing around, letting their kids run their lives.
NEWSFLASH: You gave birth to them, therefore you are more powerful than they are. CONTROL THEM. Some of these kids just need to get their fuckin block knocked off.
And no I'm not talking child abuse. There's a HUGE fuckin' difference.

It is completely the parents fault. Boy you just wait till I have kids. I dare them to mess with me. I'm not going to be bossed around by a child. I firmly believe in corporal punishment and so does Andy. Spare the rod, spoil the child.

Time outs FAIL.
Just saying no... FAILS

Sometimes associating doing something wrong with pain works. I mean damn it worked for me and Andy and every kid who was raised during the 90's or earlier. Then people started calling Child Abuse at every child swatted for misbehaving.

And furthermore, why do parents continue to child proof EVERYTHING.
Like an ex co worker of mine had a baby shower for another co worker at her house. She gave us a tour of the house, which bugs me also. I hate it when people give tours of their house. Too showy for my tastes. Anyway back to topic, This house was so child proofed she had bumpers on the corners of her bed posts, bumpers on corners of tables,outlet covers, a stove guard, a child locked fridge, locks on the cabinets, and a cover thingy on the door handle. You have to squeeze the door handle bumper and then turn the knob.

WHAT??? Are you kidding me??
Only two of these were used when I was a child. And this was 1989. Now my parents had a brand new house and child proofed it as much as possible. They only used the cabinet locks, and the electrical outlet covers. And I turned out perfect...well for most part. If a child is told not to touch the hot stove and touches it anyway then it gets burned the finds out that it hurts and it wont do that shit anymore. Kind of extreme but I knew not to touch the stove.

Whatever...going job hunting.

Christian Nymphos? Wow

2009-01-19T09:25:00.000-08:00

I stumbled across a website like 5 minutes ago. And I'm shocked, amazed, proud, and weirded out all at the same time.
Christian Nymphos is a website dedicated to Christian women who are madly sexually driven to their husbands. I just never knew wild and crazy sex existed in a very religious family. Ya kow.
Heh, you learn something everyday. Am I really the only person who never knew this existed? hmmm Now I'm very curious. ^_^

Christian Nymphos

Kitty Communication & New Operating System

2009-01-18T21:33:00.000-08:00

I did it!!!

I successfully communicated with my cat, Leia, through yawns.

Sounds dorky, I know.
But get this.
You know how someone can yawn and you yawn too, as reflex sorta thing.
Yea well I yawned, the Leia yawned, then me again from seeing her do it, and she did it one more time. So yea communication on some level.

On to other news, As of right now (12:38AM) my computer is being updated to Windows 7.
Windows 7 (Build 7000) is the sequel to Vista. This is only released as a beta version right now. But I have the crack to it. ^_^

It is AWESOME:

Music cures all

2009-01-17T18:17:00.001-08:00

I am living proof that music cures almost all ailments.
My splitting headache was cured by some mellow 90's one hit wonders!

Infertility? But I'm ONLY 19!!!

2009-01-16T08:01:00.000-08:00

Andy and I have been together for almost 3 glorious years. Married for erm let's see Sept 2007 to now. What is that? like a year and 4 months or something. Anywho, So we've never, in 3 years, used protection of any kind. Do the math, yes I was 17 when I met him. Not that I was really trying to get preggo at 17 but I wasn't gonna try and stop it. I had a great job at the time.
Anyways so in 3 years of unprotected sex and no "pulling out"...no babies. No inkling of babies. NOTHING. Even with my ex boyfriends (3 of them unprotected) I never got pregnant. Now it can't be that I have found 3 duds. So it must be me. >_> Great.
Sometimes I get missed periods but they come back within 2 months or so. I attempted a home ovulation test. Seems as if I don't ovulate. Of course, these things could be wrong. But 3 years.

And I know I'm a little hefty and I very well know that could be a problem but I was about 160lbs when Andy and I met. pffft.
One other possible cause that I refuse to rule out is SECOND HAND SMOKE. Both of my parents smoke. My dad smoked all my life and I grew up in a nicotine tanished house with yellow walls, musty smells, and ash trays in every room. And the smoked while they cooked. (Can't get any better than that can it?? FUUUUUCK). I blame them. I blame my horrible asthma on them. Yes I have bunches of cats & yes I'm allergic to them but only two of them are inside. So they can't be the cause of my asthma and allergies. I live with an inhaler, a vaporizer, nebulizer, & air purifier. I hate living here. The smoke just rises to the top level of this house where Andy and I live. (yes We live in the upstairs of my parents house...it's cheaper. $200 a month rent..cmon now). We are although gonna build a wall and door to make the house more like a duplex than a two story house. Hopefully I will be able to breathe better.

Anyways, back to the infertility thing.
I came across quite a few articles listing infertility as a "side-effect" (to me it's not a side effect, it's a dream shattered). Could it be that my parents and their selfish smoking ruined my chances of hearing the pitter patter of little feet?
I've considered going to the doctor (and I hate docs) and seeing if I really am infertile or if it's Andy. But I'm terrified of knowing the answer.
But I'm willing to undergo IVF treatments and take fuckin medication. Even though I fuckin hate pills, shots I can do, but being on a medication freaks me out. And I know the chances of getting multiples are very high. Whatever. I'll take 3...or 5. Whatever I just want one at least. I would be eternally grateful for just one.

Problems with my car

2009-01-09T13:47:00.000-08:00

I own this 1997 Pontiact Grand Am GT (POS- Piece of shit for idiots) ,
My car has ALOT of problems. Obviously, I'm not the only one with issues with this car. Seems others say this car sucks also.
What couldn't go wrong with this car???

Let me list my problems:
1. Front Driver & both back windows wont go up or down
2. The front passenger window will roll down about 2-3 inches and then stop and you have to let it "recharge"
3. When you attempt to turn the volume down using the radio knob it makes itself louder and you actually have to slightly pull the knob out and turn it to make it work.
4. Radio eats cassette tapes
5. The front passenger door wont lock with the power lock.
6. To unlock the car, I have to unlock the front passenger side with the key and then hit the unlock button, walk around the driver side and then get in.
7. The key lock on the ignition is broken so I can pull my key out and the car is still running. Which isn't such a bad thing.
8. The button on the emergency brake is stuck inward so I can't use the E brake if I needed.
9. The strutter on the shocks, I believe it is called, has come loose and is trying to put a hole through my hood. It has made a quarter size convex dent in the hood and I'm still driving on it.
10. oh and no air conditioning (and again...only one window goes down)
11. Trunk won't unlock with key.
12. Drivers side button that controls the side view mirrors has slid into the door panel and I can't get it to stay in the hole.
13. The interior lighting such as the radio, dash console area (guages and such), & radio control button on the steering wheel have red lights under the buttons to illuminate them and they get really warm.
14. Shift lock button on the gear shift won't work. Luckily, I don't have kids.
15. Carpet comes up every once in a while.
16. Horn is very sensitive and the whole front of the steering wheel is the horn so you can be getting out of the car (which is EXTREMELY low to the ground)and honk at random people. And they give you the strangest looks.

Library for freebies

2009-01-06T15:19:00.000-08:00

So I have a bad habit of going to the library to borrow CD's & DVD's in large sums, taking them back to my house to burn copies of. >_>

Here's what I got this week:

CD's:

Pearl Jam - Binaural
Pearl Jam - Yield
The White Stripes - Icky Thump
Jimmy Buffet- Songs You Know By Heart
Aerosmith - Just Push Play
STP- Tiny Music
Barenaked Ladies - Are Me
The Cure - The Head on the door (2 disc collection)
Everclear - Ten Years Gone
Hanson - 3 car garage
Fiest - Let it die
Madonna - Ray of Light
Moby - Last Night
Now 8
John Mayer - Room For Squares
Crazy Town - The gift of game
Bon Jovi- Crush
Desperate Housewives - Soundtrack
Maroon 5- It won't be soon before long
Ashlee Simpson- I Am Me
Ashlee Simpson- Bittersweet World
Simple Plan - Self Titled
Linkin Park - Minutes to Midnight
Lindsay Lohan - Speak

DVD's:
Desperate Housewives- Season 4 Discs 1 &2
Dinosaurs The Complete 1st & 2nd seasons (4 Disc)
^^^ You totally remember that show, it rocked^^^
Chasing Amy

The library doesn't have the best selection but hey free is free.
Frugality at it's finest! ^_^

Under the wrapping paper.

2008-12-25T09:34:00.000-08:00

The gifts are opened. Well most. Cynthia hasn't got home from Greensboro yet to open hers.

I got:
-> Beautiful Katamari for xbox360.
-> Sex And the City the movie
-> Raise your voice. (I love Hilary Duff...such a sucker)
-> A real wooden handle, ostrich feather duster. (finally got one)
-> Dirt Devil Kone vacuum cleaner.
-> Starry shoes
-> Pink and black Plaid lounge pants
-> Black fluffy slippers and Zebra print lounge pants from Nana
-> A dustpan and small brush (Yes I wanted cleaning supplies)
-> The sewing machine that I've been aching for.
-> A new 4gb flash drive.

Stuff:

Champagne was the color I had to get because that's all they had left. I wanted plum...it was so pretty!!!

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Beautiful Katamari for 360

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My simple Brother beginner sewing machine.

Goodbye Carter's

2008-12-21T16:59:00.000-08:00

So I quit my job. Walked out on my pathetic supervisor. I hated that place. I hope I can find something where I can work from home.

We played dress up last night.

2008-12-19T08:34:00.003-08:00

Cynthia found our makeup...We were bored.

I'll just leave this here...

Songs to Fuck to.

2008-12-17T10:39:00.000-08:00

I got bored. And I wanted to make a mix cd of songs to fuck to.

I plan on putting it into a specific order like a few songs for foreplay then heavy or fast songs and then a slow song and alternate them. But for now it's not in a specific order.

So far here's what I got:
-> Christina Aguilera- Nasty Naughty Boy
-> The Divinyls- Touch Myself
-> The Bloodhound Gang- The Bad touch
-> Gunther- Ding Ding Dong
-> PCD- Buttons
-> R. Kelly- Sex Weed
-> Garbage- Only happy when it rains
-> NIN- Closer (way overdone but oh well)
-> Kill Hannah - Crazy Angel
-> Drill- What you are
-> Nickelback- Figured you out
-> Led Zeppelin- Dyer Maker
-> HIM- Wicked Game (Chris Issak Cover)
-> Chevelle- The Red
-> Kill Hannah - Lips like Morphine
-> Lisa Hall- Is this real?
-> Chevelle- Vitamin R
-> Mellowdrone- You and I
-> Sublime- Caress me down
-> No Doubt - Don't Speak
-> Mazzy Star- Fade into you
-> Hellogoodbye- Here in my arms
-> Def Leppard- Love Bites
-> Jamie Foxx- Unpredictable
-> No Doubt- Hella Good
-> Marilyn Manson- Para-Noir
-> Def Leppard- Pour some sugar on me
-> Evanescence- Haunted (original...not the remix)
-> Hellogoodbye- Touchdown Turnaround
-> Led Zeppelin- Kashmir

Christmas Presents && Cyn

2008-12-14T11:21:00.000-08:00

I'm getting my $35 back. Should post to my account in 24-48 hours.

My computer is running slow. I think I may need Andy to look at it.
It's taking forever to load eBay and I can't list my items if the internet is running this slow.

Almost all my Christmas shopping is done. I just need a few more stocking stuffers and I just have to wait for my other items to arrive. For the first time I may not be one of those Dec 24th shoppers. Andy got wayyy too much this year. I'm actually having to limit myself from buying more for him.

I miss Cynthia...I haven't seen her since Tuesday...and the bitch lives with us. WTF?

COME HOME.

Heh...I miss my little stoner! ^_^

And because of her... I'm addicted to this song:
Apocalyptica feat. Adam Gontier of Three Days Grace
"I Don't Care"

The song is in the sidebar. Youtube and other sites won't allow embedding it. >_<

FUCK BANK OF AMERICA

2008-12-13T07:49:00.000-08:00

>_> I'm so angry I don't even know what to write.
Just know that Bank of America (Bank of Opportunity....pffft) screwed me yet again.
And right now I'm straightening my hair so that I can go to the BoA branch and bitch and get my $35 back and rip every penny of my money out of my checking account and close it.
And promptly go across the street and put it in the SunTrust account that I opened at 12:10am this morning.
And because of BoA I missed out on 3 FREE SHIPPING deals that was yesterday and yesterday ONLY. DAMNIT!

Do do business with Bank of America. Just don't. This is like the 4th or 5th time I've had to call or visit and bitch about these ridiculous fees. WTF? My parents have their mortgage with BoA and they wish they didn't. Everyone I know hates it, even my work uses them and HATES THEM.

< / bitching >

8 legged FREAKS

2008-12-11T06:46:00.000-08:00

Isn't your day getting off to GREAT start when you wake up to swatting something off of your face. That something, happens to be a bastard common house spider from the Pholcidae family(whatever that means). You've seen them in the corners of your bathroom, kitchen, etc. But when one is traveling through your hair and across your temples you kinda develop a hatred towards them. Look I don't kill you when I see you in my corners, I let you live another day without killing you with shoe, STAY OFF MY FACE, simple...stay off me and out of my bed.
So once I swatted him/her off I tiptoed across the floor and flipped the light on and skittering across my carpet was the culprit. I grabbed the nearest thing, a hoodie, dropped it on it and squashed it. And now I have the creepy crawlies. >_>
Andy once told me that he read that the average American swallows approximately 6 spiders in their sleep a year. WHOA NELLY! A year or so ago I read 13 a year and today I read 4 a year. Amount aside, swallowing ANY spider is a little too much for me. And I know, I 'm obviously not dead so it can't be that bad. It's a creepyass thought. What if that SOB gets lodged in my windpipe? That would be a fun ordeal, coughing up a spider. I would faint. But those little pests could be causing me more illnesses than needed.

So about 2 months ago Gina and I bought face masks (paint masks) after I told her about the spiders thing, and since she has been bit by a brown recluse. I haven't worn mine to bed. But as of tonight, IT BEGINS! Yes I will be sleeping with this:

Writing this killed me, by the way, hunting for a picture of the little bastard near turned my stomach.

Also, I wanted to add that when I said above that it could be causing me more illnesses than necessary it didn't mean that I go to the doctor for everything. I've been to the doctor once since 2005 and it was only to renew a prescription for my inhaler. I am in no way a medicated freak of nature. I hardly even take aspirin for a headache. Personally, I think this nature is over medicated and needs to stop thinking a pill will cure EVERYTHING...it won't. It's a placebo. HAHA. No wonder doctors are rich they make you buy buy buy! Sheep...you're all are sheep. ^_^

Oh and not only did I wake up with a spider on my head but also come to find out that I got my period. Soooo Spider on face, bloody, and it's a rainy day. Could it get ANY WORSE? shit...shouldn't have said that.

One of the blogs I follow, followed me back. YAY. Her blog is na0: A nihilist raised on violence. And she has a financial blog Sunny Savings

Boredom is a killer...

2008-12-08T19:48:00.000-08:00

So I left my inhaler and quickie makeup bag at work tonight so I don't have makeup for tomorrow nor do I have my inhaler. So I pretty much can't do shit tonight to aggravate my asthma or I get a nice little steroid shot at the ER and hefty bill attached to it.

So Cynthia and I were reading some chicks myspace who has this big ol lesbian girlfriend and they both have these things on their profiles that says stuff like:
You are the jack to my sally
you are the Simba to my Nala
ETC ETC ETC

So we figured we would come up with a few:
These are to Cynthia from me:

You are the pepper to my salt
You are the sex wax to my surfboard
You are the gerbil to my cage
You are the hinge to my door
You are the pane to my window
You are the stucko to my walls
You are the asbesto in my ceiling
You are the Chemical to my Romance
You are the Kitty to my Hello
You are the Preparation H pads to my hemroids
You are the Talent to my Billy
You are the Florida to my California
You are the Ridin to my cowboy
You are my razor to Markie's Mohawk
You are the Burgandy to my sheets
You are the gerbil to my ass
You are the caller ID to my phone
You are the vaccum to the Raines Brothers
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These are to me from Cynthia:

You are the mermaid to my flounder
You are the Dr. to my Pepper
You are the waffles to my pancakes
You are the sexay to my babay
You are the aspartame to my cancer
You are the Bob Saget to my RULES
You are the HO to my BO
You are the pad to my period
You are the KARNBREAD to my BANJO
You are the Landon to my Tommy Lee
You are the Aaron to my Vaseline
You are the other car...to my car
You are the Green to my Day
You are the wood to my Morning
You are the face to my hand
You are the Bizkit to my Limp
You are the hubcap to my flat tire
You are the mail to my box
You are the state that is on my face

Note: It was not spermies on our faces...just a face mask.

Work from home options???

2008-12-08T12:32:00.000-08:00

I hate my job.
Carter's is the most money grubbing, made in China, piece of doodie place I've ever worked at.
The only three people I like there are Gina, Jenn, and Ali. Gina and I are good friends and she makes the work day pass quickly. But putting up with demanding mothers/grandmothers of spoiled kids who run around the store, terrorizing everyone, and whining about everything tends to put a damper on this routine job.
I miss CVS...I shouldn't have quit there.
I never once hated going into work. It was fun and I loved the photo lab.
Here...I dred it.

I'm also considering going becoming an AVON Representative with Andy's mom... *Oh Joy*
>_>
I suck at selling stuff. I worked at RadioShack and sucked...and Suncom and sucked there too. I just can't see persuading someone to purchase something they really don't want or adding on shit that they really don't need. I feel so deceptive and money hungry. I dunno maybe Avon will be different.

So I have my eBay sales (which are lacking due to the economy), my part time POS Carter's job, and some craigslisting.
I NEED MONEY FOR CHRISTMAS!!!

I want to work from home...I hate retail.

32 things...

2008-12-07T06:00:00.000-08:00

Eight Things That I’m Looking Forward To
1. getting moved
2. Christmas
3. restoring my ebay business
4. relaxing after finishing Christmas shopping
5. organizing Andy's junk and computer parts
6. Getting my kitties spayed/neutered
7. Getting rid of fleas...again
8. Growing a garden

Eight Things On My Wish List
1. Sewing Machine & Serger
2. A new...well certified preowned (I chuckle...it's USED) mini-van
3. kids
4. wives for my gerbils
5. organizational containers
6. more Christmas ornaments
7. Money to purchase Christmas gifts for others
8. A cure-all for my dogs mange. >_< Eight TV Shows That I Watch
1. Jon & Kate plus 8
2. Desperate Housewives
3. Family Guy
4. Aqua Teen Hunger Force
5. Fox and Friends
6. What Not to Wear
7. Little People, Big World
8. Shinchan

Eight Things That I Did Yesterday
1. Cleaned bedrooms...still not complete
2. went to the Graham Christmas parade
3. ate Paul's Pastry donuts
4. Refused to babysit a friends child
5. Messed up the shocks on my car and now I have a huge convex dent in my hood.
6. Look up porn.
7. Moved stuff from the old house to here.
8. Missed an awesome Dreamscapes Project concert because I messed up my car.

About Me & this blog

2008-05-27T19:17:00.000-07:00

Well for starters, I am Cassie "ZombieKitteh" and I am a Cat Enthusiast.

I have 11 beautiful kitties and a husband, Andy.
As well as 2 gerbils and two dogs.

I live in North Carolina.
This blog is a sub-blog of my xanga blog...
xanga.com/push9monkeys