Job Hunting,,,

I just spend the last 4½ hours job hunting.
I applied at Target, Hobby Lobby, Payless Shoes, a gas station, and Sally's.
I talked to the guy a PetSmart in hopes of finding something. No one is really hiring. Grrr

So Andy & I used to have this friend, Jody, a semi-black guy and last April, Jody and I had a falling out and bitched each other out. Well I ran into him today after coming out of Hobby Lobby and we chatted for a while. Some how he got the idea that I was attracted to him and he said that if I wanted to get one in Andy wouldn't have to know. And he walked around me, I thought he was going towards his car but he ended up walking behind me and grabbed my ass. I sorta jumped forward and started shaking a little and wiggin out inside. I mean who does he think he is. Goddamnit. That shit just pisses me off. So I made an excuse to get out of there and took off to Andy's work to calm down. I was freaking the fuck out because it was a huge parking lot and there were a lot of cars out there but no people and the way he was looking at me I thought I was gonna be raped or something. Obviously, morals don't matter to Jody anymore because he's been sleeping with a woman who has been married for 10 years. WHA!

My Biggest Fear.

WARNING: PIC HEAVY!


Andy got his permit. Yes, Learner's Permit...not License.



On Wednesday the 28th...

I know I've been holding him back, from being independent and driving on his own.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that he could crash.
I'm scared that someone could hit him.
I'm scared he might DIE.
I wish I could put a protective bubble around him.

At almost 20 he should have been driving long before.
But I'm selfish. I really just wanted to protect him.

I wanted to make damn sure that I knew he had arrived to his destination successfully.
This meant taking and picking him up from work, taking him to the store, taking him to a friends house, everything. Not to mention it was more time that I could spend with him.


I don't know what I would do, or where I would be without him.
My life really wouldn't have a purpose if he were not there anymore.

And see, If I had never met him it wouldn't matter, obviously.
Life would go on.
But once someone or something great comes into your life, you want it to last forever.
And generally you would do anything to protect that one thing. He's it, my one thing to protect with my life.
But if something were to happen, my life would be torn to shreds.
That one thing you worked so hard to hold on to, gone.
You long for it once it's gone and weep. And every tiny thing reminds you. The flood of tears and that lead ball in the pit of your stomach slips out from the shadows.
I just, I would be LOST without him.



I held him back, I caused his pain.
He's catching on to driving rather quickly though. We went on an hour long drive tonight.

My cat has a horrible licking obsession. She grooms herself to the point at which she pulls patches of her fur out. No fleas though??




By the way, I don't know how many of you out there are WoWfags but let me just say that World of Warcraft RUINS relationships. But sometimes I secretly play. 0_o



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Recent Pics:




I hate candid shots. I always look like I'm nuts.



In a Moby cd ^_^


Again, I always look like a crackhead.


My nose is HUGGGGEEEE!


I hate my green camera. It sucks.
Worst $119 I've ever spent. Grrr



God, I love Ring Pops!



There damn well better be something in my eye for me to look this retarded.